AS IT WAS 

You wander in the same streets, you sit on the same sofa, you sleep on the same bed, you talk to the same friends, you walk in the same old park, you eat dosa from the same place, you go to all the “places that used to make you happy” but now you go alone. It's weird how just not being with that one person can cause all the emptiness, you don't feel the same with your friends, you don't want to be in the same room because it brings back so many memories, you don't want to sit on the same sofa because it reminds you of your first gentle kiss, you don't like going to the same old park instead of hearing the peaceful sound of birds chirping you hear his laugh, you still visit the same place to watch the sunset but rather than enjoying the view you get tears in your eyes. 

It's weird how those friends, parks, and moments will never feel the same, you will always feel the emptiness. Why? Well because he is not there, not there to hug you tightly, not there to kiss you gently, not there to make you laugh, support you or talk to you while walking in the park. You know it will never be the same sure you will still be friends, and you will still speak but deep down even you know it's not the same as it was. You know you will have a thousand thoughts before texting him or calling him once and disappointment or guilt will always be at the top, you know you lost your best friend and lover simultaneously. But it's funny how the same person can make you smile at the same place and make you cry at the same place.

SO YES, Harry Styles, we know it's not the same, as it was. 

- Celine Kaya