DELHI METRO 

I have a very unhealthy obsession with Delhi Metro I find it oddly comforting I know it sounds out of one's mind and it is but I love the aesthetic, the rush, the chaos, the cute guys, and my metro partner (Akansha) there is just a different kind of peace I find in the metro, listening to songs while watching the city outside of the window, rare moments when you see an empty seat oh there is no limit to that happiness but the one thing I love the most about the metro was traveling with him. I loved all the witless things we used to do in the metro making the crowd awkward, being extremely cringe, holding hands, passing out on each other’s shoulder, playing weird games, dropping me to the station, goodbye hugs, and him in the metro. It used to be my favorite part of the day. 

I guess he was the reason I used to find peace in the metro and now every time I visit Delhi there is just this weird expectation of mine that we will run into each other in the metro it's like it's fixed in my head rather than searching which line I have to go I dig him, I search him in all of those places where we used to spend time, we used to sit, where you would drop me I would look for him everywhere and just thinking of the fact that we might run into each other makes me feel smile and anxious at the same time because I would give anything to just see that charming face on the other hand just thinking of seeing that charming face makes me nauseous the idea of him being a completely different person haunts me, it haunts me that he might have moved on in life, and he wasn't even looking for me so yeah he scares me, his memories haunts me.

Now that there is no trace of his existence now that I don’t chase him in the rush, now that I don’t search for him in all the known places my heart and mind have started having that unhealthy obsession with metro again now there is a different rush I feel, traveling alone in the metro doesn't bring back memories it brings peace. 

- Celine Kaya