IT HURTS DOESN'T IT?

It hurts, doesn't it? when you give them all the attention, give them all your care, make them your priority yet you are never the one they choose. It's like you are standing in a line and waiting for your turn but it never comes up you know you deserve it, you know you have done everything to be at the top yet you aren’t. It hurts doesn’t it always being the second on the list? always being the left-out one in the crowd?

We all have been through this phase in our lives where you are never their priority. You still put a lot of effort into that relationship, friendship, and family but you still feel left out, you still feel taken for granted, and you still feel that emptiness. It sucks not being at the top for them, not being “the one” to them.

No matter how much you care you are still never good enough to be their priority. You start questioning yourself about all the possibilities of why you are never good enough for them, you start doubting yourself, your habits start to affect you slowly and it hits hard every time you make an effort because they matter to you, they are crucial to you, you will fight for them like a mother fights for her child you just can’t let go their hand you try, try, try and try till you feel its worth it that friendship that relationship is valuable to you. But when you see it through your own eyes and feel it in your heart then you put a rock on your heart and slowly let them go. You silently leave, hoping that someday you will be someone’s priority.

- Celine Kaya