Dear 2024 

Dear 2024, 

I know you are gonna be shit, I know just like all other years I will beg god to just pass this year too I know I am gonna cry, sob, and get my self-respect to drown in the process of liking some idiot guy and I know my college is gonna make it worst, the exams, that one faculty who gets on my nerve every time I just see them, that one senior whos face just makes my day worst, those people in my college I give zero fucks about but still wanna intervene in my life, getting rejected from media firm, unproductive days, weeks, months cant even begin about uncanny thoughts like insecurity, anxiety, lack of confidence, unreliability, isolation is never gonna end. 

But I know after being this harsh you are also gonna shower me with love, kindness, and care and with people I know that are gonna be there for me and I know I am gonna make a hundred memories to cherish, I am gonna meet new people, I am gonna travel, I am gonna come one step closer to my goal, I will create a bigger audience for my blogs, I will get better I am not gonna promise you or make any resolutions like going to the gym, waking up early or running 5 miles a day but I can promise you I will prioritize myself, my writing and my people and I know it's not gonna be easy but things will fall back into places and I will be happy well for a while at least 

I know I have a hard time trusting people and I know I am gonna be distant and lost this year too but I know you will take care of me, I know you won't let me break into pieces like I did earlier, I know I have no faith in giving second chances to people in life but I know you are gonna give me a second chance every time I mess up. 

- Celine Kaya