IF I FALL IN LOVE 

If I fall in love again it has to be perfect like rom-com Bollywood movies, classic romantic novels from David Copperfield to Pride and Prejudice, the iconic Turkish drama The Girl Named Feriha and Our Story, and all-time favorite sitcoms like Friends or The Office. If I fall in love again I want to fall for the right person this time, I wanna be his Lara Jean Covey, I wanna be his Rose, his Monica Geller, and Pam Bessely, I won't look back and this time I won't be afraid to fall in love. If I fall in love again I wish I could check all my bucket list boxes from doing golgappa challenges from my favorite movie Rab Ne Bana Di Jodi to visiting the gurdwara, mandir, masjid, church, joining dance classes, playing my first Holi, eating dinner together, going on movie dates it has to be like Rab Ne Bana Di Jodi where only he could bring out the natural tani that's hiding inside of me. 

If I fall in love again I hope he knows how much the little things matter to me, I hope he asks me who am I instead of assuming who I am, I want him to know all my dark and bright sides, all my misery and pleasures, I wish he knows he fell in love with a writer where her lover never dies, I hope he will be well enough with the fact that even though I have burnt all the memories of my past love, they would still be in the back of my mind when I write and not in a bad way in a way that I am taking it all out of me. When I fall in love, I wish to meet my partner in a peaceful library or near a serene lake where our eyes can meet and we can fall for each other in a moment. We would continue our story by taking long walks around the streets of Delhi, hand in hand, exploring new cafes, and enjoying delicious dosa from my favorite place. We would wander the streets of Hauz Khas and visit India Gate at midnight. We would also go to karaoke night at Summer House just to experience everything together.

If I fall in love again I wish I will give my heart to someone who would shower unconditional love, care, and respect towards me, I wish I could have a real connection with him so we both could show each other our scars without any fear, I wish he will be my cheerleader and pillar and I will be the same to him. I would be his go-to person, I would be the one, I would be his best friend and I would be the one walking down the aisle. 

- Celine Kaya