The Right One

They say you will know when the right one comes, they say you will see it through your eyes when the right one comes, they say a boy becomes a man when the right one comes along. They will give and do everything for that one girl, and it breaks my heart that I am not the right one, I am not that girl, I am never going to be the girl a man changes himself for or gets his shits together. I will never be the one people talk about, I will never be the one people say, “She might be the one” I will never be his other half, no one will remember the little details for me, I will just be one of the girls on his list who he texts or calls when he is bored and I text him back within seconds like a fool. 

What can a person do to be the right one, to be the ideal girlfriend, what can I do to make a guy fall for me and be afraid of losing me? What can a person do to be the one, where did I go wrong, what have I done to not be the one for any guy, where do I lack and don’t get the kind of treatment I deserve, am I chasing the wrong dream or the wrong guy? 

All I want is a guy to treat me well, fight for me, love me and stick by my side through thick and thin. When will someone look at me and say, “I would die without her, she is the one I want for the rest of my life”?  When will I have a chance to love a guy with all my heart? When will I get to show my lovely dovey side? When will the guy I like realize that I am the one he wants, I am wife material, I am the right one? They say god has a better plan for everyone but I am tired of not being the one, or maybe the right one is just around the corner waiting for you to come along. 

What if I change everything and instead of waiting for the right person, I work on myself and be the person who fulfills her dream herself? What if the right person is waiting on the other side where I am full of self-love and think love is complimentary? What if I can inspire people to come and let them know that they don't have to degrade themselves to be the right person? What if my stories reach everyone and they remember my characters and love them? 

What if instead of trying to be someone's poem, I became a poetess?

- Celine Kaya