BACK TO YOU 

You dream of seeing them, and you always had a thousand thoughts and ways of how you might run into each other but what if you do?  What if you do run into each other? do you talk about your mistakes, pour all of your anger on them, or do you sit and talk like you used to? 

You go visit them again, you see them again, and there is a weird rush in your heart again, you are about to witness something you played in your head 1000 times but there he is in that same black shirt and that same charming face with a different haircut and that rush fades you come back to normal, there is a bit of awkwardness you don't know if you are supposed to give a handshake or a tight hug ... You laugh like you used to, you share your story, you share your experiences and juicy gossip, you make fun of each other, you dine at the finest place, the food is getting cold but the gossip isn't, you walk out of the place hands in hands giggling and exploring the streets, you stop at a store to buy something for yourself while he is staring at you through the eyes you aren't allowed to fall anymore they come and help you pick one, you wander around Connaught Place when you hear an artist sing songs, you stand distant from the crowd, when he hugs you from behind and you melt like a fucking butter in a frying pan , you can't see the artist , you don't care about the crowd, you don't care about the music , you don't care if people are watching you , all you care about is that moment , you care about how tightly he is hugging you, you care about how good you feel when his hands touches your waist , you care about how close you are and you both end up getting tears in your eyes because you know you have seen this film and you didn't like the ending . 

You love it and hate it at the same time because it makes you happy that you are not the only one stuck in the same place and it hurts so much because you know nothing is going to happen because you are both stupid and you know very well that it's the last time you will ever see him, this is the last time you will ever hug him because now you know its finally time to move on. 

- Celine Kaya